With S there is a special connection : he isn't just my partner/ lover , he is also one of my very best friends. In fact, the fact that he was my best friend was the one thing that tipped my hand enough to say , YES, i will marry this man. There's a deep level of understanding and a commitment to helping one another in our evoloution, both as individuals and as a couple More than that, a commitment to the continued development of our relationship, no matter how difficult it may seem in the moment, and no matter what that takes.
With T its quite different, but our relationship has its own merits. We have a similar sense of humour, and way of looking at things,as well as the ability /habit of detatching at times. His own deep calm grounds me out in ways that no one else ever has, and he doesn't judge my crazyness. he continuously surprises me with his gentleness and his willingness to give to this thing we have, more so than i had imagined he would. He as well, i would marry in a heart beat , and am lucky to call one of my very best friends.
i have more to say about both of my loves, but that is for another time :)
waking up to both of them here every day pleases me more than i can ever explain..