June 13th, 2008


the city is burning.

exactly as they said it was when we first heard, as i've always thought it would be. my  paranoia and preparation hasn't been for nought but how long will it last? And who ever wants to be right in this kind of situation? minor relief, gratitude for foresight, and the thought to stockpile the high nutriton rations and bottled water.
Its meyhem out there, already, although i think some still go on, thinking its a hoax, business as usual." Its a flash mob. "
until they lose someone for real.  thank god we've trained them for handsignals and silence. thank god we've practiced.  Its the party at the end of the world, too quickley beginning.  thank god i took the time to learn to shoot a gun. thank god for my  well worn shovel. Its time.
 windows boarded, check.  Secret room is stocked and in place: we've locked them in and there are only the two keys.  we'll sleep in shifts, til its over and we either come out on top, or under the ground.
 its easy to sleep with your boots on. just as easy to die that way.
 theres still electricity and ( hopefully clean) water. how long will it last?
 i sincerly wonder how long we will last.
Dantes inferno

not quite yet dark.

he insisted on going to work, yet. he  stilldoesnt believe it.   news reports  fall on deaf ears.
 " Didnt you ever hear about of War of the worlds?"
 saying good bye  was just that. it was saying goodbye. i didnt cry.  what if hes right. god let him be right. the  unusual quiet outside though, sends a shiver up my spine.
i will wait. and begged him to call me later on.
 what about the power outage? i cried.
 they just blew a fuse upstairs. calm down.
 the power came back on, but still.. theres no reasoning with him.
 im sure he feels the same way about me right now.
 do whatever you have to do to keep yourself sane today, kiss.
 then he just... left.
 i ve told the kids it s a game.  they are cheerful,  but  can feel their anxiety as well. they arent sure.
 Earlier, more wailing upstairs and a terrible terrible thump, then screaming. then silence.  then footsteps out the front and the door slamming,  the car pulling away, rapidly

. Any thump or unusual sound outside and i am right there, finger to my lips. Shush.
 i accept what i cannot change. i will protect what is truely mine, though.  Only they matter now
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