So its sushi for dinner, lego set for fun, playing uno, and an icecream cake soon, happy eleven year old. :)
His feet are bigger than mine.
two years, i suppose. a lot changes.
I am back to unschooling my kids. free range kids , they say. til we decide what we are doing,anyhow.
i wanna go fuckin run away and never be found, in the woods with my progeney , like a time best left forgotten.
things that are important.;
CPR,and how to apply a touniquette
knowing how to birth a baby.
Knowing how to shoot a gun
understanding social construct
knowing how to grow a garden
knowing how to bake real bread
knowing how to purify water
understanding human nature
learning to compete with oneself
knowing how to get STILL
there is more to this.
i am unsure of what. anyhow.
understanding electricity is in there somewhere.
knowing how to listen inside
He DOES love his children, and we are discussing things amicably now. All either of us want is for them to be happy, safe and in a stable, loving environment. That will best happen if both parents are working as a team to make thier lives as good as possible.
I know that i have done him wrong by this, i DID lie to him. He may have done wrong by reading my private thoughts but i understand why he did and why he reacted the way he did. . and thats not to make excuses for him... just to say that this isnt all his fault, not at all.
i just want things to be good. that is all.
i'm crossing my fingers and toes right now. The Universe keeps telling me to work with people. Lets see what happens, eh?
im a nervous ,jitttery headachey pmsing mess today. fuck you everything. i hate you. but seriously though.
i have to go now, here i go.
it always amuses me the different ways that children will hide when they feel that they have misbehaved.
I am really really really excited about being able to ride my bike again!!!!! increased lung capacity and muscle tone here i come!!!